Just Help me
My survival mode is on. I am hanging in there. =) Its stupid to get involved in petty issues like this. Though petty, it is important to me. What I tell myself? When are you gonna release me God when you have drawn me back like an arrow? How far you are gonna draw me back till I can go the furthest to hit the target?? I understand if you want me to go far, you have to pull me back at a proper distance at first. God's grace is sufficient for me. I shall be dependent on God's provision. I shall trust the Lord and throw my brain away and have a childlike faith. A faith that would want to move mountains. I shall not lean on to my own understanding. I know the end results is worth it. It is just unfortunate for me. Of all people I was chosen for this. Lord give me a sign . Something that assures me to know I am on the right track. Whatever it is take me away from this feeling. My first lament in a long time. Did not know where else to pour it out.