Malaysian Christian Writes

OOOOOO yeah.....Guess what my parents gave me as a Christmas present... Fine you can't guess...Its a keyboard casio.. WOOHOOO! Happy? Duh..=.= Finally I can play XD... Too happy di.....learn all the songs I want to learn like yiruma 'kiss the rain' or 'river flows in you' or 'maybe'. Need to brush up on my piano skils though been almost a year since I played for real. I definitely am the luckiest person in the world. I prayed for a piano and waiting for almost a year and trust me it is not long I got it real quick.Thanks God thank you dad thank you family.

We'll for sure singing is definitely not my thing...Trust me it never was... For those of you who disagree...Let me put it this way, I love to sing but my voice is just an average voice. Not a voice that will have fans not a voice that will have people wanting to sign me. But for sure I love to sing no matter what. That is what I have been telling everybody, no matter how bad you are it does not matter, if u love to sing, well then sing. One things for sure that I will always write and compose songs. Maybe that will be my part time job. I have no ambition, so once I find my job I'll write songs and compose them as part time job, maybe find an agent who can get connections and see which artist would want my song. Hopefully an agent whose connection will not go only as far just Malaysia but the whole world. To bad I am only limited to malay songs and english. I'll try chinese maybe by only providing the melody. Ah a step closer to what I think I wanna be. Now my main job....W

Everyone I have a new song called you said.. Well its not my first. technically I wrote many but in the end the other I do not count as the songs I want and I shall put this as my second song. I have another coming up. The song is called "You said" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jV9Vam1_56s PLease watch it rate it comment it and if u can....subscribe me!!! thanks. OOOH yeah!

Genting was fun.....And everything is lucky. LUCKY = every funny thing that happened by accident. People falling down, people dancing funny, singing funny, and all sorts and I thing I and the others with me on this trip laugh until we disturb the neighbour rooms XP. Going on rides......Friends persuaded and trick me into going to the space shot....They say not scary very fun...T.T I shout out of fear and not fun....Shout Until no voice....I come down the ride shaking and like want to pengsan. Sleep till late night....pass midnight....play poker cards and the loser has to answer a question truthfully. Its like truth or dare with not dare and no bottle. In the end all I can say about Genting Highlands is fun fun fun and laugh laugh laugh.....The fellowship to me is important...getting to know each other and getting along. Hmmm the theme park rides were just like extra fun... Who would enjoy if the were in genting all alone. Even if he were to go on the rollercoaster he would be like

You know people use to talk big about doing scary things or when facing it you will not fear. Like telling your friends..."Ah if a guy points a gun at me i'll just grab it and punch him" well thats just saying it before experiencing it. I experienced being threatened in KL and yeah it was kinda cool in a way where there is an adrenalin rush and heart thomping. Me and two of my friends were confronted by a thin tall late 30 year old guy and man when he started saying things like give me money and you wont get hurt....It was pulsating... So my friend manage to scare him away by saying his parents were close by....Want to know more ask me...lazy to write a whole novel on this..XP

Haiz. I do not know why do I sigh. Is it because of the streaming? I do not know which class to go....so all I can do is just wait and see. It will be nice if I had a class to choose my own classmates, but you all know that thats not how it works. Life seems too short to make all the decision, to learn everything the world has too offer, or to master every skill there is. It is just impossible.

In this world nobody was born perfect( except Jesus)... When we grow, we change and choices are made. Every choice counts even the little little ones like choosing to drink either coffee or Milo. Little actions also determine who we are or will be. Nobody is perfect but we strive for perfection. We want everything right. Its nothing wrong but it is all vanity. Knowing that no one is prefect, you still search for the implausible person or thing. What we need while we are on this earth is wisdom. The wisdom to differentiate between good and bad. The wisdom to choose the right things. The wisdom to speak properly. The wisdom to think. For what I think, when there is a problem, i do make sure that I hear the story from both sides before I decide or say anything. I also make sure what I say is never offending or hurtful. Actions do speak louder than words. Whatever we do will determine us.

Have you ever felt lost inside. The kind of feeling where you look into the space and do not know what to do or where to go. I have that feeling a lot. It has made me so completely undone. I really dislike this feeling. It brings you down so much. Its like I am chasing the wind...chasing something you can never see neither grab. I feel, wait i cant feel. I like to use the word 'irony'. Its like I feel so bored and empty at times knowing I have friends and family to entertain me. At times I feel like a hypocrite telling friends not to worry and everything will be fine giving them courage and hope when deep inside me I am like a fire called worry burning inside me. I know I will get back up, but I do not know when I will fall back down.

Freedom!...or is it? After finishing a tiring non stopping torture in class there is more to come. The freaking results! And I guarantee now the results are not so satisfying as I want it to be. And during the holidays U bet i will have to study! Now I am sick. after exam...sick! bad way to end. everything is going kinda downhill for me. My mood is gone. I can't say I am one happy kid. I am happy just not feeling anything right now. The kind of feel where when one slaps you, you do not feel and you fall. Well what is done is done. There is no use crying over spilled milk. just go through this horrendous few moments of seeing the marks and shouting WALAOWEH! LIKE CRAP MY MARKS! All my hard effort but the results are not so......I do not have to tell the rest, you know what I am trying to say.

Since this blog is called Eddryll's mind.... Antonio thinks his minds says...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH feels like throwing the pillow. Only one thing....He does not know what is he angry for.

Have you ever experienced once in a life time event. It does not need to be really interesting just need to happen once in a life time....maybe twice or three times but that's it! So today on 4th of November 2009 something happened,duh. So during exam time it was Biology period. We were all normal doing our test when all of a sudden! "Brasshsshkrack" A part of the ceiling fell. Miss my friend and my teachers but inches...No centimetres! Nobody laughed everyone was in shock. it was so smelly too. All of a sudden dozens of man teachers came. Now that was something funny to watch. If it were to hit somebody I guarantee its gonna give somebody a coma. OOOOOO Its magic, you know, never believe its not so..... Ok Makan time chaozzz!!!! From Your sincere writter Eddryll.

Trying to make this a song. I'll give it anytime, My hand and my protection. To the one and only one, my very special girl. The girl I tell my friends, that she's the one, The girl I dream at night, A kiss redone, To the girl, She's the one I love. PS: its a song something I came up with nothing special

I am on the brink of the cliff. Looking down under wishing the wind would not push me. I wonder and ponder to myself under deep comtemplation, how is it like down there? Is it scary? maybe it is not. Just because of the older people who told you what it might be like down there, there is no reason to believe. Stressing on the part where they said might too. But in the end logically we do not jump as the probability of not going back is high and we do not take the chance but follow the norm...That is to be on the safer side.

The Study of life my @$$. All You need to know is that you came from your mothers womb that's it. But Bio is like from the cell itself! I hate bio because of paper 3 where one writes experiment. hate it! Today I messed up my bio. My friends would keep this term in mind where they say do together...and die together( in bio of course). Arrghh. Now its just too late, and we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect.

Exam Is tomorrow. Good luck to all the form 4's. I on the other hand is preparing for battle. Putting on my amours of books and more books. My weapon is my pens and liquids. Back up is my smarter friends to give me answers when I do not know....LMAO=.= just joking. My plan is to keep a cool head and be focused. WAAAAAAAAACHAAAAAAAAA here we go!

People tell me, to grow, we must experience problems. I on the other hand do not experience problems but I know I have changed for the better. I was insatiably curious about this. Why does it not fit my source's theory? Well I asked my mom and she said just be grateful and do not ask for trouble. Well I sort of agreed with her but the curiosity was killing me inside. Up until now I have not found the perfect answer or picture but all I start to notice is that problems happen around me and not to me. I see people going through problems. I came up with a new theory, that we can learn from peoples problems without facing them. Cool Isn't it? But lets face it, I am still young. Who knows one day I be facing with a fierce lion or something like that.