Malaysian Christian Writes

Oh 2012. Indeed what a year. A year where the end of the world was not significant in my life XP. For me I went through three semesters in a year which actually felt like 3 years. 3 phases. It was a moment of growth for me. Looking back, I know I have changed a lot. I do not regret everything I have been through at the same time I am grateful that by His grace protected me, guided me, with held from me certain things and prevented me from making certain wrong decisions in life. Truly I believe that I am not the same man I was 12 months ago, 9 months ago, 6 months ago 1 month ago. As God continues to reveal His revelations through his word I am constantly amazed at how He works. Through out the year, God has revealed to me slowly the kind of person I am and how much that is still needed to be worked within me. I struggled, I fought and I am reminded of Psalms 46:10 " Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the worl

The times when I am alone, I pray and be reflective on everything. I had a lot on my mind. Was reading the Bible when this verse came to me. Phllipians 4:6 "Don't worry about anything; instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank him for all he has done" (NLT). Being human, easier said. How is it that even though God has affirmed us so many times, we still worry and fail to put our trust in him? Yes the moment we worry we fail to put our trust in him. We are just human. But yes do keep the habit of praying for everything. the moment you worry you just pray. I have no doubt of where God has placed me. And yes, compared to others, I can say I do have a blessed life. But that does not mean my struggles are any less. I am in the phase of God moulding me. So he has to shape me, sometimes break the parts where are deemed not important. I admit, I have never changed so much before from the moment I got into college last year till my degree year no

"The truly lucky people are the ones who manage to become long-time friends before they realize they are attracted to each other. They get to know each other’s laughs, passions, sadness, and fears. They see each other at their worst and at their best. They share time together before they get swept up into the entangling intimacy of their sexuality. This is the ideal, but not often possible. If you fall under the spell of your sexual attraction immediately, you need to look beyond it for other keys to compatibility." An interesting blog post from my friend =)

Everyday is a struggle. Whether it is something big or not. Comes a point many times in life, where you lose almost all control. God does have a plan. For what that can be identified, it is like a wake up call to say " Hey you are not the one in control". I need to place my total dependence on Him.  It is not that I do not know that, but sometimes in life I have tendencies to act out on my own. I know I am to trust him and yet I live out on my own understanding. I trust God, but is it with all my heart and all my soul? Unfortunately I believe it is a NO. Humans.... I tell people to not worry yet I find myself worrying. Not for myself, but for other people. My heart is burdened. When I prayed for God to let me see. I was determined to know more, but the truth is not always pretty.  I claim God's grace is sufficient for me and his power is made perfect through my weakness. Lord you will never give me anything I can't handle. I lay them down at your cross Lor

So part 1 of this topic was introducing what is all the " believe the best, assume the worst " was about.  http://eddproteo.blogspot.com/2012/12/believe-best-or-assume-worst.html So as I have stated in my last post. We develop an attitude when we fill in the gap. And that gap is what it is promised . The expectations of someone. What you see and who you are causes what we put into the gap . It determines whether we believe the best or assume otherwise. The experience we go through shapes the decisions we make. People who are able to stay in love learn to believe the best. In every relationships there is always misunderstandings . Whether happy ones or unhappy ones. What makes it different is the happy ones believed the best while the unhappy ones assumed the worst. Remember the first time one fell in love? Everything the other person does is good. Nothing bad about him or her. Because we believed the best. As Andy Stanley would say it "She is not impatient, she i

 1 Corinthians 13:4-"Love is patient, love is kind. It is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable and keeps no record of wrongs. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trust , always hopes, always perseveres." Believe the best or assume the worst. Wow, what does it mean? I got this from a sermon I watch regarding a sermon about 'staying in love'  It struck me how actually " Believing the best or assuming the worse" was one of the fundamental aspects in a relationship....of any kind. This is more like sharing the person's sermon in my own words. Christianity is not just about heaven but here and now. Where you are at the current time. To be a good testimony of Christ wherever you are and whomever you're with. There comes a time when everyone of us has a decision to make where we fill in the gaps of a situation. This is where we either ass

This is somewhat interrelated to my previous post on intimacy  http://eddproteo.blogspot.com/2012/07/dating-will-have-intimacy-may-have-no.html Now before I continue, let me clarify I am no expert in what I write. I just share my thoughts from what I read. After all, my blog is called 'My Very Mind'. When you date, you tend to skip the friendship part . Often it pushes you to romance too quickly before getting to know the person better. Of course there are those who date and start to learn about each other, learn about their weaknesses, love them in spite of it and continue with it. Well, bless you indeed but matter of fact, it is rare to see occasions like these. Joshua Harris says " Dating encourages romantic expectations ". Now imagine if you were friends instead. You will have no pressure on knowing whether he or she likes you or not. You feel free to be yourself. There is no requirements of you being perfect. You don't need make up, you don't need

Being the person you dream to be and the person you are are two different aspects. One is reality and another is a fantasy that has the potential to be a reality. But often times we make decisions that goes on a path away from reality. Right now Lets focus on three things that shape us. 1. Time 2. Energy 3. Resources Your time is your life. Every moment you spend your time with someone, it means you are sharing a part of your life with them. Every time you play 6 hours on the computer which means you used 6 hours of your life on the computer. Time is that precious =). Where and who you give your time to gives a statement of who we are and who we would like to be Your energy comes hand in hand with your time I believe. What effort and energy you are willing to pour in shows it . Like for example if I play basketball and during a match I will play whole heartedly dribbling with my might and skill to pass or get to the basket....you would say " Hey, he is serious

Never thought I would get the opportunity. Was having a jamming session with my friend Mas and he just asked me to follow him to a job interview at Enopi. A tuition centre teaching Math and English. I thought since I had a month and a half break, I would rather work than rot at home. I Got the Job. Wow an opportunity to learn to love kids since, no offense, I tend to find children of this generation pretty annoying. Results.....was quite the opposite. The Challenge These were rich and smart kids.... Do the math. 6 years old doing Multiplication and division. High achievers. Spoiled brats. Seriously no offense =) Handling them ain't easy. Getting them to do their work was the least of my worries. It was getting them to sit. Oh believe me these are smart kids we're talking about here. The moment they sit and do their work, you will go, " Wow when I was your age, I did not even learn math yet" . Actually I do not remember how I came to learn numbers. Of course the

" Dating leads to intimacy but not necessarily to commitment " Joshua Harris made that statement in his book 'I kissed dating goodbye '. I do not totally agree with his book and it is based on his convictions, but still he does prove a good point. Lets keep it short and simple  =)  I guarantee that most of you would not agree with what I have to share here but don't you think it makes sense? Intimacy would awaken desires that humans can't control and if we do have that commitment, it would be like promising something we can't or will not keep. Lets rephrase the title to ' Intimacy is the reward of commitment '. I believe we have no right of asking a person to satisfy your emotional and physical needs if you are not willing to make a commitment. It takes a lot to give yourself to someone (not just sex), and if you are not looking for a committed relationship would only have the person scared after breaking up with them. One may claim the

Humans are humans after all. I can't remember the numerous times I have stated that we no matter how objective we may want to stand, at various times allow our emotions to control us. At times yes it may be needed, but most of the time, it is acting foolishly in the end. True love nullifies dating. If you think, dating being guided by the world's attitude actually portray's the love for one's self and making decisions on what is best for me (we can go deeper on what is true love into this if you readers want it) . Yes probably we need to go deeper on true love but the question I would like to pose here is this. What is my real reason for dating?  What am I seeking in dating that friendship cannot provide?  Am I selfishly seeking my own fulfilment, to fill that empty hole in my heart, to feel like I belong, to feel complete?  What do I talk about with my partner?  Am I arousing emotions I'm not ready to meet? and for Christians, will having a relationship

What does it mean to wait, be silent , and listen?   Before I begin, I also be silent and think, whether this would bore you readers .....and then I continue XP  The words silent and listen are usually used in a parallel manner if you noticed. Doing these three things needs patience. There is always a time to be silent and a time to speak . One cannot listen if they are not silent. Sometimes, wisdom does not come from telling people what you know, showing them you are right, proving them wrong, later on to feel all high and mighty. Sometimes wisdom also means to be silent, hear them out, listen to all their wrongs and rights and taking it in. The right time will come to say the right words. Ever heard of.. ." It was the right thing to say, but wrong time to do it"? Yeah it is as you have read it. One can cause unfavourable damage if they keep speaking but on the other hand, one can lose opportunities when they become silent at times when they are needed to be heard.

I am not sure whether I blogged on fear before. But if I did, well then take it as a second post on fear then. I am not expert on fear but this is what I know. Fear limits you . One thing is for sure, fear can come in many forms and not just the " Oh I am scared " kind of fear. Anxiety, doubts, timidity, worry, suspicion, depression, loneliness, superstition and the list goes on.              Somewhat fear is related to my previous post on being an oyster (link of the post)  which I think is about worrying and having doubts on what is outside your comfort zone that you stay in your shell not knowing what is out there. Thus, being fearful. For example, No one is afraid to say I love you, they are just afraid of the response. Now he or she worries of the response and fear of rejection. Worry is a fear. Or No one is afraid to speak up in class, they are just afraid of what people might think of them. But you also see how it limits you. To the extreme you end up doin

HA! When you clicked it you thought I was going talk about some girl I am not over with. EEEEK wrong! It is my new song I wrote. I don't know why when I write songs the theme is always something like this song. Enjoy. ^_~V Still Not Over You(ORIGINAL)

Ok before I begin, I think we all know what an oyster is. Is that little gooey thingy that lives in a hard shell? Well if you are still confused.... G o o g l e it. This is a summary of a statement by Dr.Maxwell Maltz. As I have said in my previous posts that to love is one risky thing. You make yourself vulnerable, and chances are high to get hurt and your heart aches and bleed. But in the end, I always believe we end up stronger and continue loving. Orrrrrrrr We could just protect ourselves in a strong protective shell from the world where no one can hurt us and we will never be sad....Like an oyster. Maltz said to live creatively, one must be wiling to be a little vulnerable thus  be willing to hurt a little.  To love, to be open, to disclose your live's information would also mean at some point, you are gonna get hurt. You could shell up like an oyster and never experience those moments or " turn the other cheek ", remain vulnerable and continue living cr

Three words, Grace Of God . Our band has gone so far in just within a year. Considering how it is only a year, it has just been an awesome ride with my band mates.  Along with Joshua Lew and Mas Mahathir we have rocked our own world. We have had performances for events, charities, toastmasters, parties, online competitions.... Ruth Meets Ashton. A name that will be carved in my life forever. So, I just dropped by to share with you our latest achievment. We join an inter-college talent competition called "Lost and Found " on the 24th of March. We made it through the finals and everyone was good and...duh talented. It was the greatest night of my life so far. We did not win but let me tell you what we achieved. The attention of the audience and judges. One of the judges from a band called the Revellers were amazed with our mash up with our original song " On My Knees " and 'Hide' from Yellowcard and asked for our contact number. He wanted to try to

The last time I blogged about The One it was about me not knowing the answer and complaining everyone who found their 'ONE' saying you'll just know when the time comes. Seriously that answer just did not suffice. After making lots of research (which means there will be citations inside here), this is what I have come to conclude. You never marry 'The One'. I begin with what Keller (2012) said "  Today we are looking for someone who accepts us as we are  and  fulfills our desires, and this creates an unrealistic set of expectations that frustrates both the searchers and the searched for." .   Today as I have always said, marriage has somewhat lost its significance in the eyes of the word. The reasons people get married was because they claim they were ' So in Love ' then once they get into on, and the years pass by , they find that initial love they use to have is not able to sustain them.  We are missing the point of marriage here! We always wa

My survival mode is on. I am hanging in there. =) Its stupid to get involved in petty issues like this. Though petty, it is important to me. What I tell myself? When are you gonna release me God when you have drawn me back like an arrow? How far you are gonna draw me back till I can go the furthest to hit the target?? I understand if you want me to go far, you have to pull me back at a proper distance at first.  God's grace is sufficient for me. I shall be dependent on God's provision. I shall trust the Lord and throw my brain away and have a childlike faith. A faith that would want to move mountains. I shall not lean on to my own understanding.  I know the end results is worth it. It is just unfortunate for me. Of all people I was chosen for this. Lord give me  a sign . Something that assures me to know I am on the right track. Whatever it is take me away from this feeling. My first lament in a long time. Did not know where else to pour it out.

Questions were formed to help clarify that you wanted answers. Without questions, no one would know that you needed an answer. Otherwise we would be like Neanderthals screaming our heads off if we wanted to drink when all we needed to say was " Hey, I'm thirsty, can I have something to drink?".                  But even with questions, more often than not we do not get our answer. Why is that? Are we asking the wrong questions? Are we afraid to ask the right one? Many times in life I find myself asking the wrong question and at the same time, the answer does not need a question. The answer would sometimes be right in front of me. Haha, I'm slow.                  Our Y generation nowadays always want things simple, quick and fast. We would not want to wait. We want to take the escape route . We say things like " I do not want to think about it", " I just want to get over with it and move on", " I hate it when this happens, or when that ha

I have blogged about true friends last time( When I was less matured). Now I bring a different angle towards it. When you have true friends by your side, it gives you the sense of security and completeness. Having a true friend allows you to put down your defence walls . Allows you to share your inner thoughts . Allows you to be who you are not not masking around your true self. Allows you to e xpress who you truly are inside. Realise this as well, the people who hurt you the most are usually your true friends . Why? Because we have got so close that we expect most from them. In life we sometimes forget that we are only human, and we make mistakes. So when we do something wrong, it would disappoint the other most for they expect more from you. It is normal. =) Whatever they do, seems to have big impacts on you. Life can be awesome all the way, but once you have that bond, your true friends becomes what makes your life awesome. They have a significant piece of your life and yo

The Lord had to break me so many times to teach me. With His grace and mercy I embrace it. Yes I do feel bad and guilty but I understand the meaning of His forgiveness. Bible says in 1 John 1:9 that if we confess our sins, He our faithful God will forgive us....and PURIFY us. See the word there? Purify, cleanse us, clean us from all impurity. That is the beauty. I am only human, I stumble so many times until I cannot count no more. But the Bible also says, in 2 Corinthians that His grace is sufficient for us and that His power is made perfect in our weaknesses. See what I am telling you?  Humans, are weak in almost every aspect. But God ables us to do things. I am weak! I boast in my weakness! To show you how God will work through me to do amazing things. It depends on Him, I depend on Him. Through that, Glory is given to Him. When we are weak, He gives us strength. When we say we cannot do it, He says my grace is sufficient for you. When we say I am not able, He says I a