Malaysian Christian Writes

Yes, it is about God and how I came to know him. I do not have that vivid memory of what I was doing, where and when or even the time or date. It was when I was around 11 and that is as much as I can tell you. What I can tell you is this. God works in many ways and for me it went something like this. It was not through knowing God with intellectual knowledge. For me it started with discarding those knowledge. Bear in mind, we are talking about an 11 year old here so what he knows may be slightly off. As life continues, I could not carry this image of God I had in my mind no more for it made no sense. So I had a choice. Hold on to what I knew, make it a form of blind faith ignoring the crisis I go through, or place my whole foot in this word called “ faith ”. Yeah, I opted for faith. I discarded what I knew, knelt down and surrendered. Hence, the real relationship started. Relationship not based on what was learnt at Sunday school nor the dos and don’ts. Relationship not bas...

I've read the a quote before saying " Dating without the intent for marriage is like going to a grocery store without money ." and it continues " You either leave unsatisfied or take what is not yours " So yeah. It is as it is. Many times I have observed people getting into relationships with, I would not say wrong, but selfish reasons. That being said I am not generalizing at all. I have said enough about relationships and how one needs wisdom and all having two imperfect people coming together. Get this really clear, I am no love guru or some relationship expert . Look at me, I am just an ordinary young adult . I am single haha. Now, that being said you must think gosh If I get together with this person I am gonna marry him . I maaaay tear up laughing? But point is I am not gonna give such pressure. I will date with the intent to marry but does not mean I date you and you will be wife . I will be normal hahaha. That being said, I am saying that if ever I...

This is my 2013. Initially I thought the whole year was a year of fun and happiness and very little of the lows. It is really funny as I go through my journals, it is actually the other way around. The name of this year "The Unfailing God". Reading through my journal I have been in more lows than highs. But here is what I would like to share with you all. It was a year of me preparing the field for God to send his rain and of course, in the process there were times when I was clouded by my desires, my human intellect, my inability to discern. It was a year that made me realize I still do not fully trust him after all. So God was a mission to change that. I was placed in circumstances countless times where all I could do was depend on Him. Only when you are brought down to nothing in weakness is where his great strength truly shows. And so God reveals a little bit of himself day by day to me. Seriously, I come to realize, where will I be without God? Who will I be? Tr...

Before I began, I am not saying I have a perfect understanding of love and that you all should listen to me. But I am here trying to show you in a small way what love should be. Think about for a moment, what was the first thing that went through your mind when a someone or lets make it a friend, messes up? He lost his temper and started swearing non stop. She cheated on someone. He back stabbed another. I would come to understand that (including me) the first thought would be a judgemental one. If you guys are not then you may stop reading, it is not for you, you are wasting your time if you are reading this. You are fine. I admit that at times I also fail at this aspect. It is indeed hard to love as I am. When difficult people come along the way. But then again, love is not suppose to only make you feel good. It calls you out to be inconvenienced. If love is self sacrificial, then "loving" in a manner where it is easy does not really cut it. When we hear about Christ...

I like to raise up a question. About being angry with God. Now I will not touch the intellectual or theological depth of this part. I will try to be simple.           I believe as Christians we have expectations and people place expectations on us. Christians are suppose to be " good " with good " behaviours " doing the " right " thing. Some were taught not to be angry with God. Oh it is not God's fault, he is in control, he knows what is best. But if you'd ask me, as true as it is as claimed in the Bible, how helpful can that answer be? I know it by head but the experiences changes the premises of my heart. I want to believe, but my human understanding limits me.              Secretly in our lives we are angry at God at one point at time or another. For those who deny this, correct me if I am wrong, I come to understand we are in denial of our emotions. C'mon, there is always a point where we hit our peak and blow our ...

Before I begin. I just wanna clarify something =). When I said faith does not make sense, I am not asking you to reject logic and reason. Reason is what we need to construct ideas and logic is a gateway to check how valid the ideas and arguments are . I am just saying, at least for me, one should not make reason and logic the centre of truth. I am rejecting its supremacy . We so need reason and logic to survive wey...hahaha. What can I say? =). I read about Abraham and it struck me the amount of faith he had. Think about it. Abraham was some dungu,chikai ( in laymen's term, somewhat a nobody) person who lived in Ur and he heard a voice to ask him to leave his home and go somewhere else.....Guess what? He obeyed that voice! Seriously, if it were me I would say to that voice.. ." Dude, you crazy? I got a good thing going on here...". But that was how the relationship started with God. He obeyed. Imagine the immense faith it took for him to obey that voice. A frien...

Gosh been so busy that this blog has been left hanging. Anyway, hmmmm, it is just a thought after reading some books. Well, you guys probably must have heard me say this a million times that my religion is not a religion, it is more of a relationship with God. Like, some people do not really get it. They go...Huh? What? It is hard to actually grasp the idea of a God wanting to have an intimacy relationship with a human . If I were not a Christian, believe me, I probably would give the same response. I mean c'mon, I believe in a gospel that says "God sent himself to pay himself for the sins against himself" . So saying I have sinned so God sent Jesus to die on the cross for me to be eternally reconciled with God again. Again, if I were not a Christian, I would say this does not add up at all. But we are not gonna dwell on this today =) What I wanna share with you guys is this. Faith itself. At the end of the day, it takes faith to believe in what I believe no matte...