Malaysian Christian Writes

The Spiritual MCO (Jesus and the church) Before anything, if anyone is interested to read a short article on what God is actually asking us to see in 2020, click here .   So, my fiancée and I, we video call often when we cannot meet each other for long periods of time. Why do we call? Because of that darn Movement Control Order. Because of that, we miss each other’s presence. Smelling her scent, holding her hand. The goodbye hugs. But now, I get to see her through a glass, hear her voice, and update each other on what matters. While video calls have stripped us down to focus on the important bits and not take each other for granted, it still does not beat the tangible physical presence of each other. And every time we video call each other we will always talk about the hope and the joy when we finally meet and get married (which is soon by God’s grace) and we end in prayer entrusting that God knows best and has the best timing. Upon reflection and talking...

2017 truly has been something. It is the year of the unfathomable(s) where you'd just never thought this would happen. But to give you an idea, let's just say it was a roller coaster ride that doesn't stop but immediately transitions to the ext roller coaster to 2018. As the ride comes to a slow, it is also moving back up for the next dip. But this is not about 2018. It is about 2017. We shall go through the unfathomable(s) chronologically-ish through key moments.  Both good and bad. 1. The start of M.O.T.H The program that I was preparing in the past 7 months in 2016 had finally been brought to fruition. Matters of the Heart or MOTH was going to be tested out among the MCKL students on discovering identity. Obviously up till now the module is constantly being revamped to fit the student's needs and growth. But the idea here is never would I have thought of creating a program from scratch let alone run it. Truly humbling because I came to realize how much work...

Never would I have thought... Such a phrase is usually accompanied with awe, shock, and surprise. Such a phrase has been used in my life one too many times. Then again, let me start off with this statement. If you serve God where Oxford dictionary would define for monotheistic religions as " the creator and ruler of the universe and source of all moral authority; the supreme being."...  then what is impossible? God transcends every dimension and is all present, all knowing and all powerful. I know the world I am living in. At least based on my perception. It is a world where the point of reference begins with the self. What is truth, what is my origins, what is morality, all begins with the self. You need not move on any further than if this if you take another position. We are living in a triggered world. But this story is shared with great hopes that it encourages you. But again I reiterate, There are three connecting conditions that I would like to lay before you ...

I suck at it  Yes waiting. Not quite what you expected as a first line huh. Let's chat. Waiting on the Lord has always been an ongoing lesson for me. Year after year one of the main themes I feel God called me to learn was learning to wait/slow down. Not just on him but in many other aspects. Each year with a different context and reason. But the message was always the same. I was somehow impatient or I needed to slow down. And at the end of each year I would go "lord I think I get it now". I was far from the truth.  And I am grateful learning that harsh truth was out of grace and humility . God provided me the platform to fail to see and His grace has always been sufficient for me nonetheless.  Now slowly I am starting to see how I am rushing through things. My mind races so fast with a jillion thoughts coming in through and my processor is overworked. On the outside I may portray a more calm demeanor, but on the inside not so and even I am unawar...

There is much to give thanks for. Truly I thought the post was specifically on me being a lecturer and how God has worked through it. But there is a bigger picture to it. One may list down all the achievements and how God has brought them to much greater heights. This is not the type of thanksgiving kind of post.  Well let me show you what I mean. (Oh and feel free to stop reading if this was not what you expect it to be) Whatever has happened be it good or bad let me just say all glory to God nonetheless. Blessed is the Lord who giveth and taketh away (Job1:21) . So what has this one year taught me? 1.  For this one year I realized how much more of a sinner I am. Now now, I am not beating myself up. It is just a reality of mine. That in many things I can't seem to do things right. I mean if perfection is the idea then I am failing like nobody's business. But glad that it creates an allowance for the gospel to reign in my heart even more. Make it more of a reality. Ke...