5 months as a lecturer
My last post on me as a lecturer was on my 3 week lecture post. I had come to learn so much in just a matter of 3 weeks. Now I am in my fifth month and it is a whole new ball game. Imagine my next one after a year. Then after 3 years. Then 5 years. Well god willing if I am still in MCKL.
What has 5 months taught me? In 3 weeks it was all about relying on God. How as a young and fresh lecturer who had no initial desire to become one came to love the one job he never thought he would be in. I hear a lot about education and understand the weight it brings to society. Just never thought that God would call me into it. That is how I know it is from God in my personal sense.
After 5 months. There are two things that I learnt.Let me begin with the first. The first thing is nothing short of constantly being humbled again and again. It was the realization of how little I knew. On every single aspect. How much I needed to learn and I was learning them through my mistakes. Oh I do cringe when I think about it. But after that I just get back up and learn. In terms of what to say, how to say and who to say it to. What to teach. How to teach. How to be a better lecturer. In terms of how to be a better employee. Being a better colleague. All in all to have the wisdom as I operate in all of this different roles.
Indeed it is my principle to truly learn one must let down their ego and learn to say okay. It was always about staying clam in the storm and find that peace that transcends all understanding. So I am just absorbing and hearing what others have to say and not just what I have to say. This is the working world after all. Nonetheless, I am truly grateful that in all the mistakes I make I have people who are gracious to me to look at me and say it is okay and you are still learning. To know that I have to bulk up and know that the working world is a harsh one but still show grace to me and allowing the capacity to make those mistakes. To have the patience with me. It truly has been a humbling experience.
What has 5 months taught me? In 3 weeks it was all about relying on God. How as a young and fresh lecturer who had no initial desire to become one came to love the one job he never thought he would be in. I hear a lot about education and understand the weight it brings to society. Just never thought that God would call me into it. That is how I know it is from God in my personal sense.
After 5 months. There are two things that I learnt.Let me begin with the first. The first thing is nothing short of constantly being humbled again and again. It was the realization of how little I knew. On every single aspect. How much I needed to learn and I was learning them through my mistakes. Oh I do cringe when I think about it. But after that I just get back up and learn. In terms of what to say, how to say and who to say it to. What to teach. How to teach. How to be a better lecturer. In terms of how to be a better employee. Being a better colleague. All in all to have the wisdom as I operate in all of this different roles.
Indeed it is my principle to truly learn one must let down their ego and learn to say okay. It was always about staying clam in the storm and find that peace that transcends all understanding. So I am just absorbing and hearing what others have to say and not just what I have to say. This is the working world after all. Nonetheless, I am truly grateful that in all the mistakes I make I have people who are gracious to me to look at me and say it is okay and you are still learning. To know that I have to bulk up and know that the working world is a harsh one but still show grace to me and allowing the capacity to make those mistakes. To have the patience with me. It truly has been a humbling experience.
Any battle if the ego is always a losing one. Think about it a win to serve the ego was never a win but rather a probable reflection of an insecure heart. There was never going to be a win at all when egos are involved yet we engage in it. That is the reality though. I say this including myself because we are just humans.
The second thing is not an earth shattering truth. But rather this is one truth that has traveled from the head to the heart. It is truly basically the working world opens your eyes to how people are. You get to see their true colours. Which is very much appreciated for me actually. Nonetheless, as I learn to work with everyone I come to learn that every individual has their flaws and quirks and this especially includes me. The idea here is that the flaws are not going to change anytime soon. People have their preferences, personalities, styles, and methods on doing a certain task or how to go about a certain issue. Usually it would create friction among each other.
The idea is that conflicts and friction is inevitable. How one responds is not. There is a right way to respond. Because if we are to function as one body as one community, there needs to be grace, mercy, and humility. So I have humbly learned the differences among each other and the differences is not something to fight about rather to appreciate that hey, this is who he is. This is how she functions. But of course I am not advocating individualism on its own. I am...heh....celebrating diversity for unity sake. Not to achieve some form of tolerance or neutrality but to enjoy these differences of the different pieces and puzzles that make up one big picture.
Indeed I am still learning. I will make more mistakes. You know what? Bring it on. Let me fail even more than. I want to learn. Okay I am not asking for trouble. but you get me.
The second thing is not an earth shattering truth. But rather this is one truth that has traveled from the head to the heart. It is truly basically the working world opens your eyes to how people are. You get to see their true colours. Which is very much appreciated for me actually. Nonetheless, as I learn to work with everyone I come to learn that every individual has their flaws and quirks and this especially includes me. The idea here is that the flaws are not going to change anytime soon. People have their preferences, personalities, styles, and methods on doing a certain task or how to go about a certain issue. Usually it would create friction among each other.
The idea is that conflicts and friction is inevitable. How one responds is not. There is a right way to respond. Because if we are to function as one body as one community, there needs to be grace, mercy, and humility. So I have humbly learned the differences among each other and the differences is not something to fight about rather to appreciate that hey, this is who he is. This is how she functions. But of course I am not advocating individualism on its own. I am...heh....celebrating diversity for unity sake. Not to achieve some form of tolerance or neutrality but to enjoy these differences of the different pieces and puzzles that make up one big picture.
Indeed I am still learning. I will make more mistakes. You know what? Bring it on. Let me fail even more than. I want to learn. Okay I am not asking for trouble. but you get me.
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