What of the my 2015?
Before I begin on with my second post about church I thought it would be appropriate to start of with what of 2015. Being in Malaysia we are all well aware of what has been going on last year. I need to bring it up. I observe the country's ebb but apparently it is not only Malaysia but some worldwide phenomenon. The world is ebbing if I were to bluntly put it. But while it may seem discouraging it need not be a reason to be in despair.
Here is a short short summary of my 2015. It was definitely a year of much preparation for when I leave my life as a university student. I was pushed out of my comfort zone. Stretched more than my body would want to but at the same time being enabled to do so because it was not by my strength but the power of the Holy Spirit who enables. If success ensues I have nothing to boast in but only claim that The Lord was with me. Because it was Him after all. What I would do then is that in my weakness show my dependency on Him and how by abiding in Him I have found great joy and gratitude. To be a part of a grand plan and I play some small part in it.
This year lack for a better word was a year learning to slow down. It God had to....slowly tell it to me how I was too fast. From various people, events like my grandfather's passing and circumstances. Best part of it all, it reveals how much more of a human I am. How after learning one lesson I still would not get it. I have to relearn and God had to remind me how fast I am going. Through my FES staff worker, Through Camp Camerons, through friends, through events. Now when I look back I see His grace covering it all. Even now that I am more aware, having the capacity to slow down better I sometimes get jump starts and the engine runs faster than it needs to be. Oh human. so human.
I had to come to terms and admit how....Un-Chill I was. Slowly but surely being able to slow down (took effort and a change in lifestyle) helped me and positioned me better to listen and hear God. To observe better. To really take a pause. To really have a selah. Hopefully this is what I am able to bring forward to 2016.
All in all I have nothing much to say. I am grateful for God's faithfulness. I am grateful for His grace and mercy. That he would take interest in someone like me. That he would be able to use someone like me. But of course it is his style anyway. Because in that he is most glorified where His strength works through me. Now for 2016 He has given me the platform to teach hundreds of students. It will be a challenge but again always reminded what my mum told me "To go by His strength and not yours, to lead in the capacity of His wisdom and not yours.". My simple job is to continuously depend on God and remind myself how He is my treasure.
I am but His hands and feet. So let Him do the work (You get me lah, not saying I will be lazy).
Here is a short short summary of my 2015. It was definitely a year of much preparation for when I leave my life as a university student. I was pushed out of my comfort zone. Stretched more than my body would want to but at the same time being enabled to do so because it was not by my strength but the power of the Holy Spirit who enables. If success ensues I have nothing to boast in but only claim that The Lord was with me. Because it was Him after all. What I would do then is that in my weakness show my dependency on Him and how by abiding in Him I have found great joy and gratitude. To be a part of a grand plan and I play some small part in it.
This year lack for a better word was a year learning to slow down. It God had to....slowly tell it to me how I was too fast. From various people, events like my grandfather's passing and circumstances. Best part of it all, it reveals how much more of a human I am. How after learning one lesson I still would not get it. I have to relearn and God had to remind me how fast I am going. Through my FES staff worker, Through Camp Camerons, through friends, through events. Now when I look back I see His grace covering it all. Even now that I am more aware, having the capacity to slow down better I sometimes get jump starts and the engine runs faster than it needs to be. Oh human. so human.
I had to come to terms and admit how....Un-Chill I was. Slowly but surely being able to slow down (took effort and a change in lifestyle) helped me and positioned me better to listen and hear God. To observe better. To really take a pause. To really have a selah. Hopefully this is what I am able to bring forward to 2016.
All in all I have nothing much to say. I am grateful for God's faithfulness. I am grateful for His grace and mercy. That he would take interest in someone like me. That he would be able to use someone like me. But of course it is his style anyway. Because in that he is most glorified where His strength works through me. Now for 2016 He has given me the platform to teach hundreds of students. It will be a challenge but again always reminded what my mum told me "To go by His strength and not yours, to lead in the capacity of His wisdom and not yours.". My simple job is to continuously depend on God and remind myself how He is my treasure.
I am but His hands and feet. So let Him do the work (You get me lah, not saying I will be lazy).
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