Problems

Problems come but I seem so calm on the outside. I know somehow deep deep down inside of me, there is this one Eddryll who wants to throw pillows at walls, shout till neighbors wake up, scream(like a man) till babies cry.
But someone told me before that I am too kind and people take my kindness for granted. I used to think really? Found sometimes there are some who do. But I'm cool. More people appreciate it rather than take it for granted ^^.
Right now, The Christian Fellowship Club shirt was suppose to be ready today but haiz the man forgot and said the factory is slow. I know all to well their tactics. To act innocent, and give a reason. =.= yeah I am not fooled, but i'm kind.
Next, I am trying to finish this song of mine. The lyrics are fine but the melody just doesn't come out right. I know I'll finish it but now it feels like I am at the end of the Grand Canyon and I can't take a step further.

Then there is this part of me who wants to forget some things but just can't. You know they'll be stagnant in your life and not worth going for it. Like licking a melted ice-cream. Hey, just drink it. But still hard to forget cause some things are able to put a marker in your life real deep down your soul. I am just afraid I wont get over it.

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