Lost

Have you ever felt lost inside. The kind of feeling where you look into the space and do not know what to do or where to go. I have that feeling a lot. It has made me so completely undone. I really dislike this feeling. It brings you down so much. Its like I am chasing the wind...chasing something you can never see neither grab.

I feel, wait i cant feel. I like to use the word 'irony'. Its like I feel so bored and empty at times knowing I have friends and family to entertain me. At times I feel like a hypocrite telling friends not to worry and everything will be fine giving them courage and hope when deep inside me I am like a fire called worry burning inside me.

I know I will get back up, but I do not know when I will fall back down.

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