I am broken

People who just met me will say I am friendly and nice....etc.
Then I in all humility reply them "Get to know me more and you will be disappointed"

Disclaimer : Just sharing here, not imposing it on others yeah =). Just sharing my life here. Just as it is. 

Now why do I say that? Am I putting myself down? Making myself look bad?
That is the truth indeed for we as humans are not perfect. Name anyone in that matter, the more you know them you will eventually end up arguing with them one day =). Oh I am smiling haha.
My friends who hear me say this smile. Cause they know. I argued, fought with them with voices that are raised, with words that hurt and at the end of the day we are still friends. Good friends if I may add.

Aren't we all but broken? I am being real here. I am a sinful man. Truly I am. Without God oh I can only imagine the cursed things I would have done. So what is the point here?

Gosh Edd stop making yourself look bad, ladies may not want you. Kidding!

Yes you may start to realize I am expounding on my facebook status few weeks back for those who read. Me, saying I am so broken and knowing myself probably worse that most, still so sure of who he is and where he is? Why then do I appear friendly and all that?

It is not me. It is by His grace and the work of the Holy Spirit through sanctification (laymen terms transformation) that I am who I am. I still fall, I still fail, I still do S**t at times. But I am not called to sinless perfection. I am called to depend on the Lord my God who have saved me. A sinner saved by grace and that is just who I am =)

Let me repeat. I am a sinner saved by grace. Other than that I am no different from the others. =) Let me rephrase, I am the same as everyone else, no better no less. As people, we are living this life together. So what then makes me different if I claim I am no different? (sorry if it sounds confusing).

I am but a boy who discovered a treasure so precious that I would want to sell everything I have for that treasure and I am still learning to sell all of my possessions as I come to fully understand the full measure and worth of this treasure I discovered. And oh the joys of discovering it so much so I want others to know of it. The only thing being worth concerned about, the only thing worth getting is this treasure.

That treasure is none other than God. Knowing Him. Being in a relationship with Him.  Of course there is much to talk on this. But too long for a blog post don't you think?=)

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