Malaysian Christian Writes

Haiz. I do not know why do I sigh. Is it because of the streaming? I do not know which class to go....so all I can do is just wait and see. It will be nice if I had a class to choose my own classmates, but you all know that thats not how it works. Life seems too short to make all the decision, to learn everything the world has too offer, or to master every skill there is. It is just impossible.

In this world nobody was born perfect( except Jesus)... When we grow, we change and choices are made. Every choice counts even the little little ones like choosing to drink either coffee or Milo. Little actions also determine who we are or will be. Nobody is perfect but we strive for perfection. We want everything right. Its nothing wrong but it is all vanity. Knowing that no one is prefect, you still search for the implausible person or thing. What we need while we are on this earth is wisdom. The wisdom to differentiate between good and bad. The wisdom to choose the right things. The wisdom to speak properly. The wisdom to think. For what I think, when there is a problem, i do make sure that I hear the story from both sides before I decide or say anything. I also make sure what I say is never offending or hurtful. Actions do speak louder than words. Whatever we do will determine us.

Have you ever felt lost inside. The kind of feeling where you look into the space and do not know what to do or where to go. I have that feeling a lot. It has made me so completely undone. I really dislike this feeling. It brings you down so much. Its like I am chasing the wind...chasing something you can never see neither grab. I feel, wait i cant feel. I like to use the word 'irony'. Its like I feel so bored and empty at times knowing I have friends and family to entertain me. At times I feel like a hypocrite telling friends not to worry and everything will be fine giving them courage and hope when deep inside me I am like a fire called worry burning inside me. I know I will get back up, but I do not know when I will fall back down.

Freedom!...or is it? After finishing a tiring non stopping torture in class there is more to come. The freaking results! And I guarantee now the results are not so satisfying as I want it to be. And during the holidays U bet i will have to study! Now I am sick. after exam...sick! bad way to end. everything is going kinda downhill for me. My mood is gone. I can't say I am one happy kid. I am happy just not feeling anything right now. The kind of feel where when one slaps you, you do not feel and you fall. Well what is done is done. There is no use crying over spilled milk. just go through this horrendous few moments of seeing the marks and shouting WALAOWEH! LIKE CRAP MY MARKS! All my hard effort but the results are not so......I do not have to tell the rest, you know what I am trying to say.

Since this blog is called Eddryll's mind.... Antonio thinks his minds says...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH feels like throwing the pillow. Only one thing....He does not know what is he angry for.

Have you ever experienced once in a life time event. It does not need to be really interesting just need to happen once in a life time....maybe twice or three times but that's it! So today on 4th of November 2009 something happened,duh. So during exam time it was Biology period. We were all normal doing our test when all of a sudden! "Brasshsshkrack" A part of the ceiling fell. Miss my friend and my teachers but inches...No centimetres! Nobody laughed everyone was in shock. it was so smelly too. All of a sudden dozens of man teachers came. Now that was something funny to watch. If it were to hit somebody I guarantee its gonna give somebody a coma. OOOOOO Its magic, you know, never believe its not so..... Ok Makan time chaozzz!!!! From Your sincere writter Eddryll.

Trying to make this a song. I'll give it anytime, My hand and my protection. To the one and only one, my very special girl. The girl I tell my friends, that she's the one, The girl I dream at night, A kiss redone, To the girl, She's the one I love. PS: its a song something I came up with nothing special